determined

things are getting more challenging. as soon as i decided to move on with some changes that could probably safe me from the depression i have now (as least i think it can somehow help) it had started to get challenging. im giving myself a big challenge to live my life back, im calling for a greater courage for myself to be more like myself, my fast, decisive and determined self.. nothing is there to stop me.. yes im just that determined!

exhausted.....

im exhausted... what's the point of life now?

i have no life... there's only work..

kill me now!

you will suck the life out of me!!!

back for work

oh my god, i cant believe my chinese new year has officially past.. so soon.. okay, im back for work, my first day work after chinese new year was totally terrible, i cant help but keep thinking about the days i spent in my hometown, i consider myself depressed about starting work too soon after chinese new year... as soon as i realize i seriously need some laughters, a friend offered a movie session... thank god... so i went to watch '72 tenants of prosperity' it is totally crazily funny... if you need to laugh your ass off, this is the right movie.. but too bad i watched it in singapore and it has to be in mandarin... but im gonnna watch the original cantonese version again, definitely... it's gonna triple the laughters. okay gotta go.. catch up later



XOXO

quick CNY updates at home

okay chinese new year was supposed to be very exciting, well up to this point of time, it is still exciting... except some accidents occurred.. in this case, these accidents are 1. the weather is fucking hot and it makes people sick, and it breaks me out.. it's rare that i have more than 1 pimple on my face at the same time, and im not talking about 2 pimples now, it's 3!!! fuck 3 pimples on my face? are you kidding me?? and a worse close second incident, i had some old classmate gathered at my house on the first day of chinese new year and we had some whisky, and god knows where one of my friend learn this brutal game from, which he gets me to guess whether the next card opened carries a bigger value as compared to the previously opened card.. if im right, im safe, if not, a small cup of whisky, but wait, not this simple okay, if a jocker is opened, i gotta drink 3 cups.. and so.. and fuck! my luck wasnt good so i drank more around 6 cups of whisky in one shot.. that's when i start getting blur and realized the amount of alcohol allergy rashes are growing... it grows as usual, so i didnt take it quite seriously as i will heal by itself, i mean as usual.. but we've left out an issue, the weather during chinese new year is extremely hot... and it worsen my rashes.. im going off to consult the doctor in a while.. and i cant even go and meet my friends i ipoh tomorrow... im so freaking sad now... and by the way, one thing to feel happy about, i made some money from new year gambling!!! wakaka... come to me and i'll buy u drinks...


till next time..

XOXO

come on chinese new year!

Chinese new year is arriving in about a week time, and i think im perfectly in mood for chinese new year now.. i cant seem to find the reason, it's not about the ang-pau.. it's not about the food, it's probably about home and friends.. and probably beer... yeah.. :D ever since i work in singapore, going home has became very precious, if you know me, im totally a home girl, when i was in kl, i'll make my way home whenever i have the time and chance, it may be once every week... during the peak period when rickythepuppysweetie was new to home... so you'll see leaving home for work in singapore has always been a hard decision to make.. i miss home all the time... sometime i wish i can just work in my hometown, and forget about the salary, forget about the shopping centres which can be reached within a walking distance, the glam, and everything fabolous in a big city.. but for some reason i cant, i just need that much of money for that much of glam i desire... im a woman afterall.. :) ok talking about chinese new year, as what i've said in facebook, im all open for public, call me, visit me at home, ask me out, take me to you home, and whatsoever you can think of.. count me in... hmm preferably it's some ethical activities we are talking about... you get what i mean :) ok tata for now..

till next time

love ya all people!!

at home

i cant recall, when was the last time i actually blogged at home... yes i mean home, my home in bidor, in my purplish-white colour painted room lying on my bed, looking up the ceiling, thinking nothing... what a day i've been longing for... it's rare that i can really stop thinking about everything in singapore, preciously rare.. but when it's time to head back, i cant help but to feel really really sad... i gotta leave home again... it's not that i hate going back to singapore it's just that there's too many things to face.. thing that really stress me out.. very much stressing me out.. i know i must deal with it.. it's basically the work that is stressing me out... i must confess that i feel stressed everyday.. not all day but... yeah everyday.. but i think it's okay as there's still sources of happiness.. weekends make me happy, friends make me happy, shopping makes me happy.. it's one of the few things that make me feel pretty, and aware that i have a smiley worn on my face.. and i believe with more exploration, smiley will be worn more and more often.. im sooo in good mood to join some NGO... hope i can take action very very soon.. and im meeting an old friend tomorrow, miss her very very much... it's gonna be a good day.. tata..

till next time..

XOXO

disasters

i've been soooo freaking busy everyday i dont have time for blogs, dont have time for facebook, dont have time for cafe world!!! i need some time, i need some space, i need some life... nah, i have life, disastrous life.. everything around me is a mess... my colleague just told me that my desk is also a disastrous mess.. ok i got it... but the case is everytime i cleaned it up it will end up being a mess just the next day.. so i dont see the point of cleaning it up again.. another disaster is the customers... they are totally crazy! TROUBLE!! TROUBLE let me tell you.. i dont understand how people could let someone waiting on the phone while they think... cant they think before they make the phone call?? obviously they cant.. ok then.. compromise.. well i'd like to talk about this for quite some time but yet again, i didnt have time, as im here today, i'll just blog about this.. :-D it's about Lindsay Lohan 's collaboration with Emanuel Ungaro last year end.. totally a disaster!! even the team from Emanuel think it this way.. wakaka.. let's see whether i can google some photos.. :D *i know i makes me sound evil.. whatever.. :p just a lil bit.. the glittering heart shape pasty is classy and legendary!

enjoy and bye people!!

till next time!

XOXOXOXOXO

tough

ok im gonna have a very tough time from now on.. i must not lose control.. i must drive my emotion before it drives me... crazy..!!

if im no longer happy with things used to make me happy , i'll find something new and more exciting..

im moving FORWARD!!

i wont give a fxxk to ppl who'll confuse me...

huh!

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